The New Year... far has been a little strange. I had a brief stint this week with trying to reconcile things with my old friend Drew which turned out to be less than sucessful. I suppose it was just not meant to be.

I am not entirely sure if I had mentioned it before but I recently was forced to move rather quickly and have ended up renting another room in a house, this time out in Okemos.

I don't plan on staying here forever but it will probably be a while now before I have the chance to finally find my own place.

Financially my life is more depressing than ever I am currently payin about 200 a week in rent. A price my paychecks can barely cover. It is a temporary payment amount until my security deposit is paid off but it has made my life incredibly stressful.

Things could be going better between Olivia and I. While I would say we are still very much in love, emotionally the trip has been chaotic as of late. I am hoping things change soon but all I can really do is wait, I have done everything else in my power to make it better and now the ball is in her court.

On the brighter side of things I have been eating healthier lately and can already see the benefits of such in my body. Fitting into a size 36 pant has now become possible and my energy levels are gradually increasing to a less comatose place.

Otherwise nothing is new, peace out!

Little beads of water moving down my arm....

I just got out of the shower, it was fabulous. Getting all hot and steamy every morning is one of the highlights of my day. Lately I have been getting progressively more stressed out, I am not normally the type of person to allow stress to affect myself, it has just been hard to manage lately. This whole work situation is a little out of control. I have been working 60 hours a week for about 3 weeks now with no sign of that slowing down. That is 7 days a week with no breaks.

I don't even have my schedule for this week yet, but I already can assume I will be coming in everyday. I know two days this week I will be in Grand Rapids. Hopefully I can at least get some Drew time in that way, but it still sucks because they are already sparing me for those two days and there is probably no way they can spare me any more than that.

I am technically not even trained yet, still they throw all of this crap on me because the upper management can't seem to work any extra hours even though they are the ones responsible for loosing all of the extra help we had before.

Gar, it just sucks to not be able to have a social life or any kind of life outside of work because you can't possibly get time off. I suppose in the end it is for the better since it will get me bigger checks that I will have no time to spend.

So that is pretty much my life in a nutshell lately. All work, no play talking about cell phones all day. Ian out.

Happy New Year

So, I think I am going to only post in this journal from now on. The only people I really care to read my journal read this one and in the end it was the first journal I ever started. So I suppose it is the one I should keep. (Even if I did abandon it for two years in favor of greatestjournal.) Anyway, it is a new year, ain't that exciting?

I still have very limited acsess to the internet these days which has lately started to bother me more and more. I feel very disconnected from the world when the only news I really get is from magazines (local TV news is pretty much useless.)

Today I am job hunting, I am going to hit every fast food and retail store in Charlotte and, if gas permits me, do the same in Potterville.

Right now I am at the public library checking on my email and making sure I have all of the right phone numbers for all of my previous places of work.

I really hope something turns out this time, as I really need a job pretty badly. I have been broke for quite some time now and it is the major suck sauce. To the extreme.

So, some of you might wonder what I have been up to in my jobless days. That is a good question.

I have been doing a lot of writing lately, scripts, stories and music. It has been mucho fun for sure.

I am planning on having my first CD released sometime in the coming few months. Depending how much I can focus on finishing the tracks I have and getting a few more under my belt it could be out anytime between March and July. So far I have 11 almost complete tracks and I am aiming for a number between 16 and 20 (not for any particular reason, I just want to have a lot of variety.)

Otherwise, life is pretty boring. I don't really get out of the house much on account of my lack of income and I live the life of a shut-in. But I do prefer solitude most of the time so it is not all that bad. The only major downside to living out in the middle of nowhere is the lack of all of the comforts I grew up loving. Delivery food, Internet, Cable, Busses. All things that I took for granted when I lived in Lansing, but now that I am at a place where none of those gone, they are dearly missed.

I don't really know where I am going with this post, I am just kind of in a rambling mood today I suppose.

New Years was pretty fun. Drew man came out and we had a Video game/Evil Dead Marathon session. It was pretty supreme. Later in the night on New Years Eve Kim and her friend Matt came out. It was nice to see Kim but Matt was more or less a drunken asshole. His presence I could have done without.

But yeah, that is all for now, I need to be off again.

Peace out Home-grillins...