It is done...

Well, last night was it, Kat officially broke up with me. I guess I can't remember a time when I was more sad, but it is all for the better.

You see, Kat is a good person. She may have never actually loved me, but at least she cared enough not to let me know that. She may have told a lot of lies. Some very hurtful. But no matter how many she told, in her own way she thought she was doing something for the better.

So I suppose I should give her my blessing. Because if she truly loves David, which she must (even though she says she does not.) Then she will make him very happy. Because she is someone who will stick with you through thick or thin, just as long as you don't bore her.

At first I was very upset, as I naturally should have been. But I understand now why it would have never worked. Kat is not old enough to understand love. She has never been in love before and it is doubtfull to me that she will be for some time. I guess I was just the idiot who got too attached and fell for somebody I did not have a chance with.

Kat and I are on good terms now, we are still good friends, I still plan on staying at her house tommorow, and will most likely still be going to homecoming with her this weekend. So, alls well that ends well right?

Back to the LJ Grind...

Ahhh, Livejournal, its been a while. For the past week almost all of my friends have been away at band camp with major bitcho, The Big JC. So, my life has been awefully lonely during that time. Towards the end of the week I did get the chance to hang out with Liz, Lizzy, and Viktor, which was fun.

Anyways, I got to spend last night with Kat. Which was nice for once. We got dressed up, and went out to east some sushi and then enjoy the glory that is Freddy vs. Jason. When we got back to her place we watched another Jason movie and went to sleep. This morning I got to go with Kat and her mom to church, and then I took them grocery shopping (their car is out of order.) So now I am home momentarily in order to shower and such before I head back.

Anyways, i hope you all had a great week!

Spherical Madness..

I just took Kat's quiz. Other than some grammitical errors which can easily be fixed, not too bad. Here are my results.

perfectionist You are are the elipses. You're an over-achievers. You try so hard to be perfect *sphere* but no one is so they don't have a chance. You are, however, very intelligent because their three dimensional traits allow them to see a person for who they really are.

What Shape Are You? brought to you by Quizilla

My day...

I had an ok day today. Nothing too interesting happened. We had a cool sub in Econ. Other than that, school was pretty normal. After school I was planning on having a few people over to watch a movie, but the only people able to make it were Kat and Jon. It was fun. Jon had to go home at about five, and Kat ended up staying for dinner.

Every time I hang out with Kat now, it seems incredibly awkward. For me at least. I don't know about her, but I just get certain memories and then my mind gets all googly. I hope this doesn't last forever, especially now that I have my mind set on someone else. Oh well...

Anyways, not much else happened today. I got a nice hefty paycheck for once. Which was definitely nice.

Peace Out. Home Googles!


This post is directed to one person and one person only. If anyone else reads it, well then, I don't know.... Kat, I have been having problems lately. I feel like I am going crazy. After that talk on AIM that we had yesterday I have become very concerned. I am not sure if I even want you to make a decision anymore. I have this deep fear of being rejected, I am not sure how I might handle it. I can't get you out of my head. It is driving me insane! I don't know what to do anymore. It is hard for me to tell you these things in person. I am so afraid of losing you, but I know that I can not feel this way. You have a boyfriend. I should not be having these feelings for you, but I can not stop them either. I don't even know why I am telling you this. I suppose I just needed to tell someone. Its like I can not even be happy unless I am around you. I know this can't be healthy. All I do is sit around all day thinking about you, and how much I miss being around you. What am I supposed to do?