This post is directed to one person and one person only. If anyone else reads it, well then, I don't know.... Kat, I have been having problems lately. I feel like I am going crazy. After that talk on AIM that we had yesterday I have become very concerned. I am not sure if I even want you to make a decision anymore. I have this deep fear of being rejected, I am not sure how I might handle it. I can't get you out of my head. It is driving me insane! I don't know what to do anymore. It is hard for me to tell you these things in person. I am so afraid of losing you, but I know that I can not feel this way. You have a boyfriend. I should not be having these feelings for you, but I can not stop them either. I don't even know why I am telling you this. I suppose I just needed to tell someone. Its like I can not even be happy unless I am around you. I know this can't be healthy. All I do is sit around all day thinking about you, and how much I miss being around you. What am I supposed to do?